So I had a great insight tonight listening to a cd.  I realize the connection between me and God is not so good.  I am on the wrong frequency.  He is still broadcasting but I am not hearing it because I may be on the wrong station.  I need to Seek him.  I also need to exercise my listening muscles so that I can hear.  I have out of frustration turned it all off.
5 relationships that reflect my relationship with God are
1. My earthly Dad and Mom
2. Authority figures Teachers, Doctors, Dentist, Scout Master, Bishop, etc.
3. Extended Family
4. Chores
5. Order and organization.

I also realized that I have the opportunity to look at what heaven is like and realize that anything that is in me that is not there will not be able to go with me.